More pretty things in my Mema’s yard
My Mema’s got the prettiest yard.
I’ve got some beautiful siblings.
In March, my mother, sister, and I will be participating in a 4-hour Spinathon in order to raise funds for Pattison’s Academy’s summer camp for special needs children— like Lily. Lily has attended this summer camp (which is the only summer camp of its kind in the Lowcountry) for two years in a row. She loves it! The people who work at the camp are kind, loving, and caring: not only to Lily, but to every special needs child that has the opportunity to go to this summer camp.
That is why it is so important that I do everything I can to help this nonprofit organization as much as I can. It would mean so much to me and my family if you donated to this cause as well, as it literally has an impact on the development and well-being of my baby sister. Our team has a goal of raising $2,000 by March 9th. We’ve still got a long way to go, so any little bit really will help.
The easiest way to donate is by following the link provided. Cash and checks (made payable to Pattison’s Academy) are also accepted, if you want to donate but are leery of using the online method. You also have the option of donating anonymously, if you wish. If you cannot donate monetarily, but still wish to help, feel free to give this post a signal boost.
To donate online, please click here.
For more information on the Pedal4Pattison’s Spinning Marathon, please click here.
For more information about Lily, and her condition, please visit my mother’s blog, I See Love.
And whether you are able to donate or not, thank you for taking the time to read this. That, in and of itself, means a great deal to me.
11/24/12 1:22 a.m.
i owe you an apology.
even though you are wrong in your thoughtlessness, i am wrong in the fact that i let you be thoughtless. what i mean is that, when i know you aren’t going to call me when you said you will, i wait to see how long it will take you to remember. that is where my fault lies. because, in doing so, i’m only hurting us. i hurt myself because you never call soon enough once you’re late, and i always end up feeling worthless, like you don’t care about me, and it makes me resent you a little bit every time, and all of that resentment will eventually add up and tear us apart. so i’m sorry for that. but the thing is that when you don’t call me when you say you will, i always convince myself that you’re busy with something that’s more important to you than i am, and so i tell myself that i will just be patient and wait for you call, because i hate to think that i’m disturbing you with your priorities. and i’m torn, because i know that constantly blaming you won’t help you become any more thoughtful, but wil constantly reminding you to be more thoughtful by telling you when you’ve forgotten about me help? i think it will only instill the thoughtlessness. i don’t know how to help. i din’t expect it to be an immediate change, but goddamnit, matthew, i already feel like you’ve gotten lazy in our relationship. i’ve thought it since you left for robin sage and didn’t make me that stupid fucking video. it’s like, i told you a specific thoughtful thing you could’ve done, and you didn’t even fucking do it. ESPECIALLY, especially when you know that i need that thoughtfulness to feel happy, and secure, and loved in our relationship. tell me, honestly: are you trying as hard as you can to become more thoughtful? because i don’t think that you are. are you unwilling? please tell me if you are, because i am only succeeding in breaking my own heart by
trying as hard as i possibly can to make you feel happy, and secure, and loved. i know i’m asking a lot from you, but i’ll be damned if i’m not giving much more than i wish to receive. the irony is that your ‘about me’ on facebook says to give more than you take, when you give so little… i love you, matthew, and i will be patient with you, but i need you to promise me that you’re going to make a sincere effort to be more thoughtful, because the only thing that i’m running on are fumes of the hope that i have for you. i’m driven by my love, but it will only take me so far. i don’t want to walk away from you. i love you so, but you’re hurting me more than you realize. i don’t know what else to say, other than that i will work this out with you, so long as you are willing. ask me for help if you know you need it. i won’t mind. i won’t think less of you. it’s my heart that you’re tending after; i know what it needs better than anyone else. i’ll stop testing you. that will help. when i know you’re being thoughtless, i’ll try reminding you. maybe it will work. i’ll try. i want you, matthew. i’ve said it before, but i won’t give up until you do, and i mean it, with all of my heart.
i love you.
Brother appreciation post
He drooled on me in that second picture.
Remember when I said I was getting back dimples? Because I do.
Pieces of you